Well, everything about my brothers visit was awesome, execpt the weather. It was cold, damp and dreary.....less than perfect, but we really didn't notice, as we were so happy to spend time together. I know he had a good time, because he spent the night, which he wasn't planning to do in the beginning. He hit the road around 6:30 AM on Sunday morning. The day mostly consisted of Mike sitting outside with Hubby and Jr. while Hubbs was working on Jr's car, which Mike enjoyed alot because first of all he loves car shit, and this gave him a chance to talk "motorhead" stuff with the guys, second he got to spend time with Jr, who he hasn't seen in quite awhile. We had lunch, then Mike and I ran up to WalMart for a few things, (there was this cool hat I saw there the other day, but as luck would have it.....gone!), then we hung out at the house for a bit. Mike wanted to go up to the lake while he was here, so around 2:30 or so we headed up to Erie to check out the lake. (To be continued.....)

My brother Mike is coming up to visit us tomorrow and I'm really looking forward to it! Especially since he hasn't been here since Nicks grad party in 2001. Wow! That's a long time between visits, eh? Anyway, he's gonna pick up Nicks "old" computer desk to put in his spare room/office to be. I can tell he's really excited to come up, or as he put it "Road trip"!!! He's been through sooo much over the past year, with getting divorced and all the adjustments that go along with it. And he's had a really tuff time financially this winter. Poor guy needs a break already. He's such a great guy too. We have alot of time to make up for, as he and I have missed out on alot of years together. (Very long story there!) Anyway, gotta get things dusted off a bit around here. He said he might get here around 7:30 in the morning tomorrow. Is he fuckin' nuts or what?? I don't even know where I am at 7:30 anymore. Sheesh, I hope I can sway him to get here a tad bit later. *fingers crossed*

I have to go grocery shopping, and I'm dragging my feet, as this is my least favorite thing to do. I don't have much choice though, as the cupboards are almost bare. Damn, if there's a shopping fairy, I wish she'd drop in now. (Ha! Just as I typed shopping fairy, I thought of Christopher Lowell!!)

"Bitsy the terror" is wearing me out!! Having a puppy is more exhausting than having a kid! At least my son would sit in front of the TV and watch some shows or a video. This dog wants to be by my side at all times. I love her to pieces, but she's wearing me down fast!!

I can't seem to find anything to peak my interest lately. My attitude is bland.....and I hate bland with a passion. I love having a spark, zest, zing. Right now I'm trying to find my "zing".

I won a FCUK hat on Ebay yesterday, and I can't wait to get it! Cute and cheap.....love it!

I'm in limbo. Job limbo, mind limbo, car limbo. This is just mumbo jumbo about limbo. I'm fucked up.

WTF? Why is it that one day I can look at myself, and think I look ok....and the next day, think I look like shit? What the hell is that all about? What goes on upstairs that just changes our perception of things? Like overnight. I hate whatever it is, and I wish it would go away forever. I just don't want it to leave while I think I look like shit.

The snow just completely fucked up my attitude today. Thanks alot.

Hubbs and I watched School of Rock last night. We thought it was pretty good, even though not as funny as I thought it would be, it was uplifting, and made me want to crank up the radio and listen to some Rock & Roll!

Man I feel great today! I know it has to do with the weather change, because the dreary days of Winter really bring me down. It's a constant battle to keep myself motivated and in decent spirits. I got down to hard core working out last night, and I feel great about it, and comitted to following through with it every morning and night. I've put on a few pounds & inches since I got out of the hospital, and I friggin' hate it! But I didn't put on so much that it won't be a breeze to shake off if I just give it some effort. Getting started is always a bitch for me, but once I get rollin' ,watch the hell out!

This Winter mood shit sucks big time. I would really love to do the 6 months here and 6 months in Florida "Snowbird" routine. Maybe someday. I mean somedays I don't want to be in the house, but I don't want to go out either. Nothing motivates me, and I just want to nap untill Spring arrives. Whoa.