Reading web pages where people either can't friggin' spell, or they're too damn lazy to care about checking their spelling is getting on my nerves big time. I mean, there are some sites that I swear it looks like a bunch of 5 year olds are at the keyboard. And I know for a fact that these folks are in their late 20's and 30's. Okay, I'll shut up now.

I just found out tonight that my brother is having a small get-together at his house for my nephew Mikeys birthday. I'm almost having an anxiety attack just thinking about being around my chain-smoking brother. Oh boy, this might be rough. No, this is gonna be rough, but I guess I have to go through it to get through it, if you know what I mean. Damn, some days are a bitch.

I didn't watch the whole Joe Outback saga tonight, but the point where all the canoes containing the "Bubble-heads" went over the little waterfalls, and the canoes tipped over spilling the squealing "Bubbles" into the swirling water was....well....priceless. *shakes head and grins*

Sometimes I can't fathom how much some women spend on things.....clothes, shoes, make-up, etc. It just blows my mind when I hear some chick mention paying over $200.00 for shoes or $100.00 for a top or $25.00 for lipstick. Huh? Did I miss something here? I don't know, but the thought of paying those prices makes my skin crawl. Those things just aren't worth that much. Even if I was filthy rich, I would have one hell of a time with some of those high prices. The only, well a couple of, big splurges I would have if I was dripping in cashola, would be a driver and a cleaning-man. Oh yeah. Give me a sec...I'll think up a few more.

And muffins too....blueberry and apple. Hungry yet? Huh?

Strawberry bundt cake.....yum!

I have taken a liking to making bundt cakes lately. Dunno why. I made a strawberry with whipped strawberry icing one today, and I must say it looks very yummy. As far as the country mucic is concerned, don't worry it's just a phase. I guess I got a bit tired of the rap, old rock and/or pop crap. So I switched it up for a couple of days. One thing I must say though, is country music sure has some pretty love songs. I guess I'm feeling mushy today. Another phase. Jeeze.

Bluemoon

Stressful day today. For no reason in particular, and for everything in general. Some days, like today, everything just seems to come crashing down, making me feel like I'm buried alive and I can't breathe. I want to get out of my skin and run away, from the feeling of panic, but then knowing there's nowhere to run stirs the panic even more. Damn hormonal bullshit combined with this nicotine cessation is a real bitch to deal with. Some days it's a breeze and others, pure hell. I made it through though, with alot of reassuring words from Hubby, an Ativan, a hot shower and hopefully, a good nights sleep. Hubbs wants me to ride down to the 'Burgh with him tomorrow to visit with my folks 'till Saturday evening, but I don't know if I'm into that, with the way I've been feeling lately. Lord knows I want to see my parents. I haven't had a decent visit with them in a long while. I just don't know if I can do the overnight thing. Lately, it doesn't take much to throw me into a spin. I don't need that to happen at my folks house. they have enuff stuff to handle, without me having a panic attack while I'm visiting. A daytrip yeah....I just don't know about staying over. What to do?

My "Outback Hubby" beats Joe anyday!!

Well, Sex in the City is over for tonight, and as always, I enjoyed it totally. Hell, even the fact that all the chicks in it are skinny doesn't bother me. I always walk away with a smile. "I wonder if models repel" was my favorite saying tonight.


Speaking of chuckles, I've been checking out this Outback Jack show, and I've never laughed so much over a show before in my life. First of all, where the hell do they find these women? I can't even believe that there are actually bubble-headed broads like this on the planet. Hmmm, I need to get out more. The fact that they made these air headed bimbos jump out of an airplane to get to the Outback, pleased me to no end. And the fact that they all had evening gowns on that they had to tuck into their jumpsuits, almost made me piss my pants. Then, after they landed from their jump, they had to hike through the outback in their strappy high heels. This is too good to be true. From there, they all screamed ,ran about flailing their arms, whined and complained about everything and anything...especially the first base camp & the bugs. As one "Bubble-Head" put it, "I thought I was going to a 5 star spa or something. I'm just not used to this at all". Shoot me now. Oh, but I gotta see what happens to the princesses next week. The humanity.

Today is my two weeks smoke free anniversary!! It's all good.

I can't believe this shit. In fact, it happened to me twice! Here's the story. I wanted to join this support group for quitting smoking. It has a forum and chat and stuff and I thought that it would benefit me to talk to others who have quit, especially when I'm having on of my rough times. Well, their directions are sketchy for getting into this "group", as far as these pledge forms you have to fill out and shit. I couldn't find a link, I didn't know it was a copy & pate thingy. Good fuckin' grief. Hell, if all this aggravation to join the quit smoking forum doesn't make you wanna light up again, nuthin' will sister. (No I didn't do it....Not gonna happen here.) Back to story. So I fill in all this shit, and send it back and guess what???????? I get fuckin' rejected not only once....but 4 times!!!! Can you believe that shit??? I'm soooo pissed. I wanted to write them a nasty letter, but I think then I'll just sound like an asshole, and they'll just say "Well we don't need the likes of psycho bitch on our boards anyway". Yet I'm still pissed. What to do?AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH! Their name is WhyQuit.com. Hell yeah, after they get done with you , that's the question your asking yourself......why friggin'quit??????AAAAARRRRGGGHHHH! Here's an excerpt from the letter they sent me:

"We've received your application to join Freedom but unfortunately must deny it as it does not contain the important information requested in our left margin link page entitled "Join after 72 hours." Freedom is an education oriented nicotine-free forum and we use member applications as a means to not only keep the forum nicotine-free but to make sure that those applying for membership fully understand our relapse policy, the law of addiction, and our forum's courtesies and rules. Unlike most forums Freedom is highly structured with tremendous focus where each and every member post relates to a single topic - freedom from nicotine.
Freedom isn't right for everyone and we know that. If after reading Freedom's policies and rules you decide that Freedom is too structured or just isn't right for you, please know that all of our postings and education resources will always remain available for your use whether a member or not. If you're looking for an anything goes type forum or one with a bit less structure we've compiled a list of some of the larger 100% free forums at the following link - http://whyquit.com/whyquit/LinksKBB.html

Your application for membership in Freedom From Tobacco - Quit Smoking Now was denied by the group's manager.

*Here's their advice if you don't get into the group*What else can I do?
Search for other groups to join or create a group of your own."


This is so damn aggravating that I'm laughing my ass off at how stupid this is. Yet I'm still pissed. I really think I'm gonna write that letter.

Enjoy!

Here we go again. This shit is outta control. War is one thing, but what these assholes do is beyond comprehension. Insane. Pure insanity.

I was just outside a bit ago, and it's so surreal out there right now. It feels like you're in a rainforest.......a bit muggy, wet, foggy, overcast. Strange.

Damn I'm pissed. I was at WalMart tonight, when I happened upon a rack of Levis for $5.00 apiece. Now I mean original Levis.....so you know what a hell of a deal this is. Well, they had my size, and a tall to boot..........the friggin' size I was wearing 10 months ago before I started eating like it's going out of fuckin' style, and now my ass won't fit into any of the clothes I love. Damn it. Is it obvious that I'm way pissed? Well, the good news is that I've started working out again.... the bad news is that it probably won't show until friggin' November when I won't give a damn. Oh, going on 10 days without puffing. Woot woot!! I'm smoke free, and have a big ass. Why can't things just be simple? Huh?

Just a garden shot. Soon they'll be gone.

I had a fun day today.....doing the birthday thing for Bitsy kind of gave me something to look forward to. Thing get kinda boring around here. Predictable. So today was a nice break from the ordinary stuff. Bitsy had fun too....I don't care who thinks I'm nuts. Don't care.


I watched SITC againt tonight, and I think Pat watched it too, as I mentioned it to her today and she said she'd check it out. I'm anxious to see if she liked it or not. That show makes me realize something. I didn't have enuff girlfriend time as I was growing up. In fact, I really had very little. For some odd reason, I really didn't like "chicks" much. I mean I hung out with a few along the way, but I mostly had guy friends. Now looking back, I regret that. That is one thing I would change if I could.

Enjoying the ride to Erie.

Birthday bliss!

Bitsys trip to Petco for birthday treats!

Yesterday was my one week "smoke free" milestone, so Hubby took me out for chinese to celebrate. I really enjoyed it, especially it seems like it's been a long time since we've been there.....and I have been craving it for awhile now. Anyway it was good.


The not smoking thing is really going well, in fact so well that it really surprises me when I think about it. I still have moments when I get blind-sided by the urges, and they're a bitch when they come along, but all in all, it's going along great. I can go hours and it doesn't even cross my mind. I can't believe that. I never thought I'd be able to say that. Hours.

Happy "1st" birthday Bitsy!!

Our puppy Bitsy turns one today! I think I'm just amazed that a year has flown by.......and a reason to celebrate a fun little occasion! She's such a sweetie, and we just love her to "Bits"!!

Well, I'm gonna be watching Sex in the city on a regular basis. I really enjoyed it tonight, and I'm going to tune in tomorrow night as well. The only thing that has me confused, is why are they running episode one next week instead of this week? Like tonight. I don't get the reasoning behind it. Hmmm. Am I a dumbass for not getting it? Anyway, I really enjoyed the show, and how I was able to escape my "little boring life" for awhile. I need that sometimes. Nah. I really mean alot.

I went for a cruise in the Vettster last night with the t-tops off. Fantastic! I drove up to Erie, around the Bayfront to the Dock and back, and it was so relaxing, I didn't want it to end. Funny thing happened as I was approaching 79......I saw a new Vette flying up on my left, and I thought "Aw shit, just keep going and don't give me any grief". Well, I caught a red light with the "New and improved Vette", and when I reluctantly looked over...it was two grey haired fellas,(I'm guessing to be around mid 60's or so!) laughing their asses off just having a blast tooling around town, in their Vette. I couldn't help but get a big grin, and I gave em a thumbs up. Way to go guys, that's what life's all about! Made my night. (I was relieved they didn't want to race!!)

Well, as of 1am this morning it will be six days of no smoking for me. This is a miracle, especially since I'm doing it "cold turkey" to boot. I never figured I could do this without help of some sort. Go figure. It's not easy, believe me, but it's very rewarding. I literally have to go from minute to minute, as one moment everything is great, and the next I'm suddenly blindsided by a terrible urge....and I get anxious for awhile. Sometimes I get really pissed. I have to take deep breaths 'till it passes, which even though it only takes a few moments, sometimes it feel like forever. Being addicted to something sucks. Getting away from it is no easy matter, but I know I can do this. I will not go back. I've come too far now. I just need to make it through today.

End of Nicks first run

First lap of first run

Nick in line waiting his turn

I feel like crapola today. I have a damn cold and it's pissing me off because I don't feel like doing anything, and lord knows there's alot that needs doing around here. I just felt the need to share my misery. Thanks for listening. *sniffle*

My favorite bargain bin! 

I went to one of my favorite shopping haunts today, and even though I really didn't feel like shopping due to my cold, once I got there and started looking around, well damn it felt great! I went to Gabes to get Hubbs some gifts for his birthday, but also to look for a few goodies for myself. It's been months since I've bought anything other than household stuff and groceries. Well, I must say I did pretty well as I found a great pair of Faded Glory white shorts, two cute bangle bracelets, a great sparkly fun ring, an awsome pair of sunglasses and a pair of dragonfly earring that shouted "BUY US NOW!!!", so I did. and the best part is I got it all for........drumroll please.......$13.00!! Oh yeah! No buyers remorse here. It felt great, and I must admit I forgot all about my miserable cold the whole time I was shopping. Oh yeah, I did get Hubbs a few things for his birthday, but I still need to find a few more items on the list. I need to do this more often. I had a blast. See, laughters not the only best medicine, now is it?
Goodies from my shopping trip 

Summer visitor! 

Oh my God....I can't believe that they finally came up with a way for people like me to have photos on our web page. I am a very happy gal right now!!