Note to self: When going To Wal Mart, do not pop into Fashion Bug to "browse". Big trouble!

"Trees that don't produce nuts" was the search entry that brought someone to check out my site. That couldn't be more far off!

Well, I was in the mood to change the look of my page a bit, but I really like the lay-out. So I decided to just change the color combinations from time to time. If it ain't broke, don't fix it.........just jazz it up a bit! Works for me.

I really like the Swappingtons way of doing things. You swap your stuff for someone elses stuff. Pretty cool idea. Only problem I may have, is that I don't want to get rid of any of my stuff. I want new stuff, yesindeedee, but I can't seem to give up any old stuff to get it. I think I'm in a Swappingtons limbo here. Go figure.

I slept until 11:30 today, and I have to say it felt wonderful. No guilt.......I deserved it. I busted ass all day today, and got everything accomplished that I set out to do. Yes, the Christmas stuff is down, and neatly tucked away in boxes that are patiently waiting to be transported to the shed tomorrow. Amen. I couldn't bear to look at it one more day.



The hassles at work are still the same. The meeting with the District Manager went well, but I don't know if any real concrete results will ensue from it. I guess only time will tell. Meantime, I'm still sucking ass in sales this month, and only a true miracle from God can save me at this point. But I decided not to stress about it, just get through the days, and let the chips fall where they may. If I get canned, I'll find something else, after collecting unemployment all Summer. No biggie. It just pisses me off though, because I'm not making any money right now. Well, I better hit the sheets. Long day tomorrow, and it's only longer if I'm draggin' my ass all day! goodnight.

Has it been almost a week since I last graced my Blog pages with useless, rambling bullshit? Sheesh, I guess so! How time flys when your tired as a dead dog and gagging on gross cough meds, just so you can try to eek out perhaps a couple hours of sleep at night. Get the picture? I been feelin' like shit lately, and just haven't been up to sharing my precious thoughts. Well, here I am, feeling better, but not quite full throttle just yet. I think tonight is "clean house night" for my hamsters. I have become a slum-lord, and they're starting to give me dirty little hamster looks. That, or I've just taken too damn cold meds over the past two weeks. Nah, they're lookin' at me funny. So I better get my ass in gear and spruce up the little critters abodes.........pronto.

After choking back my morning dose of cough syrup, the thought occurred to me. Why can't anyone make a decent tasting cough medicine for adults? I mean, they make all kind of flavored stuff for kids, don't they? Maybe I should try a bottle of their cough meds, although I'd probably have to down half a bottle to get the same effect. I guess I'm stuck with the nasty tasting shit I have. This stuff could gag a maggot. Ugh.

The meeting with the District Jackass, oops, I mean Manager was cancelled due to snow. Not that I want to drive to a meeting when we got about a foot of snow today, but it figures that just when we get the chance to voice our opinions, a friggin' snowstorm blows in and we get put on hold. Figures.

It was pure suckage at work today. And yesterday too......yeah I might as well throw that in since we're on the subject. We're all trying to keep eachother up-beat and motivated, but it's so hard when business is slower than it's ever been, and our jobs are threatened if we don't meet the quotas. I'm not gonna lie. We're frustrated, scared, and pissed off. Mostly pissed off. And each day just seems to get worse. Thursday morning, we are meeting with one of the corporate guys, our elusive District Manager, to discuss our grievences. This outta be good. The district Managers are the assholes who thought up all this quota bullshit. Hell, he isn't going to back down. His job is secure, no matter how many of us sales people go down the tubes. The only positive thing is, that at least we're going to have a chance to have our say, even if it doesn't get us anywhere. I guess I'll know more after Thursday. On a brighter note, I'm off for two days! Tomorrow is R&R day. I think I'll try to get the Christmas stuff put away on Thursday. Sounds like a plan to me!

I'm bummed my Steelers lost today, but it was one hell of good game, I'll tell ya. One hell of a good game. Now I need to grow my nails back!

I haven't felt like posting lately, as, just as I was bragging to Hubbs that I haven't been sick in 2 years, wham, I get hit with a nasty cold. And the couple of days I had off, I've spent visiting with my parents, who are staying with us for a few days. Nothing new anyway. Same old shit. I have to get a good nights sleep tonight, as all the running around and staying up late are catching up to me today. Hopefully, I'll be feeling good as new in a day or two, and I can get back to my usual smart-ass ways. Nite!

Sometimes I wonder, why so many people spend so much time thinking about life, instead of living it. I dunno. It baffles me. As they sit pondering their direction in this life; it's meaning and purpose; why life is as it is; where they should be; where they want to be; where they could be; where they've been; why they've been there; who they've been with and why; who they should be with and why; why they're wonderful; why they're not and so forth and so on. Hell, I have a friggin' migrane just reading this stuff. No wonder they're stressed..............they think too goddamn much! Meanwhile, life is passing them by, while they think about it................instead of just enjoying the ride and living it! I mean, it's a good thing to think about your future, and learn from past mistakes. But hell, don't spend every waking moment trying to understand the mysteries of life. If we were able to figure them out, they wouldn't be mysteries now would they? Go out, have a great time, take the good with the bad, and spread around as much love and compassion as you can, every day. Everything else will fall into place, wether you think about it or not. Don't think about life. Live it and love it!

As planned, I did take the day off, and so far it's been going well in the cleaning department. I always dread making "the call", but after I do, all is well! It's snowing lightly, so Nick is anticipating a good day of snowboarding at the Peek. He'll be leaving shortly, so that leaves me alone to conquer the dust in the castle. I really hope he has a good time today, as the last few times he's gone, the conditions were shitty. Well, I'm off to continue my work. Have a wonderful day snowbabies!

I had a wonderful birthday today, (even though my best-friend forgot about it), just spending the day at home with my honey. I slept in, and he brought me coffee to start my day, along with lots of "Happy Birthday" wishes. Then we watched the game together, which was a real "nail biter" to say the least! As I stated in my last post, the Steelers did win in a tense final 5 minutes of the game. All I can say is that praying does work, as I did alot of that during those final minutes! Then Hubbs grilled me (us) a wonderful steak dinner, which was yummy. After dinner, he brought in a beautiful birthday cake, ablaze with candles, singing Happy Birthday to me, as he carried the cake. It was very pretty with chocolate icing and red roses (for love). He brought me gifts, one at a time.............a new wash mit for the 'Vette.........a CD tower for my PC...........an optical mouse.........a new mouse pad............and a CD changer for the 'Vette........and last but not least, a really awesome card! I loved every bit of my day, spent the way I wanted, with my family. My brother Mike called and so did my parents, also adding to my days joy. Now the only thing is, do I call in sick tomorrow? See, my folks are due to come up on Tuesday afternoon and I work thru Tuesday night. This scenerio leaves me only tomorrow night after 9:30 PM to clean up around here. Hmmmm. It would be much less stressful if I cleaned tomorrow, and worked Tuesday, then Wednesday and Thursday off, to visit with my folks............rested and relaxed. I'm convinced. I'm blowing off tomorrow, for my sanitys sake.

Steelers pull off win over the "Brownies"!

(There's a couple of pissed off Browns fans out there that aren't gonna be happy wearing my Steeler gear over the next week! )

Well, Nick just came home a bit ago, and I can't wait to hear all the details about the wedding. (Unfortunatly, he's too tired to tell me tonight. Damn!) I really hope they had a great time.

Update on the "Compassion Training": Today Jeffrey was bitching and moaning to me, and I didn't say "Shut the f*** up" once!! Progress is being made!

I took the day off today..........and guess what I'm gonna do? Relax, relax, relax and you guess it......................relax! Sounds like the perfect way to spend ones birthday. Chillin' yo. LOL! Goodnight sleepy-heads.

Happy Birthday to me!

YaHooo!........I made it to 45!

Today was another stressful day at work. And for good reason this time. Shit hit the fan at our Friday sales meeting, as we found out that the corporation has again raised our sales expectations. Bad enough in and of itself, made even worse by low sales the past few months. A couple of the guys were trying to figure out how long it will be untill all of us are gone. June? Maybe July? I came home frazzled to the core. I realize I have to come up with a plan "B" should I get the "boot". Good news is, if I do get fired over quotas, I can at least collect unemployment for awhile. Bad news is...........no benefits. I need to line up my ducks in a hurry. Man this sucks. Sometimes I honestly believe that good guys finish last.

I am tired. Not just regular tired, but super- duper, supersized tired. It was a long day at work today, 9 to 9, and one of my co-workers bitched and moaned about everything under the sun, all friggin' day. This made a long day seem twice as long. If he does it again tomorrow, I'm taking him out into the parking lot, and slapping the shit out of him. Really. In my last post I mentioned being more compassionate this year. Well, I tried that with this fella most of the day today, but compassion wore thin around 6 P.M. Sorry, that's the reality of it. Anyway, give me a break.......it's only January the 2nd. You honestly can't expect me to be a pro at it already, can ya? Plus, I didn't think I'd be tested so soon. Gotta hit the sheets now......................I'm fading fast! Nitey night sweet dreamers.

I was sitting here trying to figure out what my one New Years resolution was going to be this year. I used to make a whole shitlist of resolutions, but found it hard to keep, hell even remember, any of them. So I decided to pick one thing each year that I could really concentrate on changing. Improving. I think this year it's gonna be in the compassion department. I feel I need a bit of work in being more compassionate towards others. Now, I don't feel that I totally suck in this area, but I do feel like I could hone it a bit, and get a bit deeper. Yeah that's it! This year I'm going to work on being a more loving and compassionate person. ( No, I didn't forget about the abs either!)

I just caught sight of my new exercise mat waiting unopened under the tree. Today it comes out of the box, as planned. Great abs here I come!

Well, another New Years Eve has come and gone, and as usual, I bought too much cheese. Other than that, it was a nice, cozy evening at home , watching movies, (Triple X and Barbershop), with Hubbs, Nick and Amanda. Hubbs dozed off around 11, as usual, but awoke in time for our New Years toast. I'm headed to dreamland any second here, as I work tomorrow morning and dragging my ass all day isn't the way I want to start 2003. Night all, and I hope this year holds only the best for you! Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

If my last post seemed to rhyme in any way........it was........not planned.